imagining away like a child, imagining ~ creating the opposite in detail, automatically and continuously forever deleting the all selfabsorbed blind crude behaviours and attitudes. 

I knew I hadn’t the psychological capacity at the moment, to withstand any of the negative and aggressive provokative energies, which always seem to be generated, in most any person taking coke on a daily basis, 24/7. 

But mostly I find a way with anything as there is a solution to everything. And sometimes you can turn a problem into an opportunity. ..as if in disguise. 

But I had decided to focus on all and any possitive aspects I could find, and so I did. And what I arrive into is almost to good to be true. I feel like a lucky baby piggy so cute, but with wings. So soon I’m in shape again~all recuperated, and flying free again. 

It’s so good to be here. I’m so surprised how sweet and loving MY SIS is behaving. It almost freaks me out!? She is so open and honest about ….wow!?, everything, even her substance abuse. We’ve never felt closer. And as we spoke and discusded about it, she said she found herself getting really clear about it with herself for the first time ever feeling So extremely objective, from just talking and a actually formulating all the feelings of it in to words to me, feeling safe to be deeply open and dead honest, laughing and frouning sometimes in agreement and sometimes in disagreement, freely without feeling disturbed for her openness ~without it ever being turned against her. She is totally open to my feeling of things, and rather tries to explain to me what is good in something I disagree with, to get me with her on it. I mostly do feel with her in all, and end up having to chose voting for the better angle of options about some things. And she is so gracefully agreeing to disagree without any anger and frustration. She says to enjoy being made more aware of different angles of better suiting options to ponder untill the day she makes the move to stop doing something, or changess her perceiving point on something. It was a nice long very connected conversation, coincidentally no phones or any one or anything bisturbing us getting carried away in spilling our hearts to each other, and get tripping on digging deeper and getting even more clear, like we both know we both got some unidentified detail of dirt somewhere unnoticed, which needs some search and find, and figure out what it is is inorder to figure out how to cleanse it sway. This time it was her who felt most funny over how putting it in words to me, made it tangibly crystal clear to herself, revealing what she wants the next steps to be, and with that as well what the next work years look like. Feeling the epiphany to implement some new energetic changes and adjustment of how and where to spend the most attention on the energyflows. 

AND lucky for her that I know, that she is so good in how she goes into what she has decided, and makes the way shine with her creative and humor. 

The first morning here, as we got up she reacted so sweet, when she saw my bio foods all placed in her kitchen cupboards with all her stuff, it made me feel so welcome, the fact that she was saying she found it so sweet how I tried to match where she keeps what, and that it feels so cozy to see all my stuff filling out spaces here and there, that it feels like someone has arrived home. 
She made me feel so wanted and apreciated that I rushed to give her a long cozy hug, successfully interrupting the feeling to cry, feeling like I have landed in safety, in unconditional love, where I can let my deform existence be showing as it does, while totally relaxing all at the same time, where I am so wanted and apreciated that I can’t do anything wrong, where my attention is automatically changing to better happier thoughts ~vibes, because I am in an environment of pure love. This is where I recuperate my health, I can feel it already, this is where I heal my heart and spirit. 

Ok like this it does feel like having arrived home. Wow!? 

She reminds me so profoundly of what it feels like to be loved, that I realize I had forgotten a few depths of what it does inside me. 

When I said I exptessed I felt worried about exchanging few of my euros, in fear of ending up in some situation where I dont even have money to atleast just leave to get out of it, she couldn’t believe that I still considered her to even just maybe still being capable of behaving ,,yeah like this what you call jewish to you. My only sister, and best influence. My serious, figure-it-all-out and organize-it-all, highly sensitive,  lonely and in need of feeling loved and wanted. At a time like this, why would tou expect that I wouldn’t take good care, in All ways of tou. And when tou even heard all I didnfor that guy!?, you don’t think I would do more for you!?” Then she paused for a while, while I had nothing yet to to say, and then she said ,,I have to say, that! bothers me. It hurt at first, but now it rather just bothers me. I think maybe you are also traumatized from me!?”

Then I immediately responded ,,No I’m just in a bad place with the world around me in general, for too long, so stuck in percieving badfeeling things coming at me, used to getting hurt and dissappointed too much. I am not traumatized from you anymore, since those time I was here working for you, and tou took me shopping on your bill every time. Then I was stunned, and toy kept impressing me with lovely reactions. And tou came aftwr me in the park where I had gone down to cry and wish over everything alone, then you showed up and I couldn’t believe it, I started to really feel your love for me, I was blown away and started believing from that time. 

But… or And!?, now you take that … stuff, but you behave to me like you must be on e really instead!? No, I know you would pay my ticket or give me money for simething necessary, but I so want to not have to ask for anything and be fully well off self sufficient and free financially. I know worry is a waste, I’m sorry. I am lala up there man.” 

Before we went to sleep she told me where she keeps the cat’s food, and asked me to please give him so and so much at whatever hours, while she’d be gone all day. And tthe whole way she was so normal cool and kind about it, it was just so relaxing. 

I know it seems like I’m tripping, getting high on nothing. But this means the world to me. This means I have good family, which is even goodfeelin for me. That is big. This means I have not wasted my love or time our whole lives hahaa.. we get our own paradise before any death. Togetjer we always can do anything and everything, when in those good connected modes of ours, full of fearless unconditional love and trust. Then we are powerful like …. and it feels like we can conquer the world. which is also always a good sign. 

She told me sweetly to please keep her only shiny pot shiny free from watermarks, exusing saying that she’s a bit fixated here and there. And I was like, no hahaa.. good fixation, I love that shit, it keeps things beautiful and it keeps them lasting forever. 

The seccond day, she was trying not to mind her phone and was much more With me fory feeling. Otherwise her job I her life and she entertains herself with it by using her humor where she can. And she sure is funny. She is a natural comedian. She just doesn’t believe me really. On the way to her one job, westopped at a gasstation of the highway and went together to the big empty bathroom where we ended up being silly and laughing like we used to do, especially as kids, uncontrolably. 

The next day she cancelled three bookingsat work and told the owner that it simply wasn’t worth it for her, and see you tomorrow kind of thing. Next she called her mom and concinced her by sweetly forcing her to not be able to say no, to being what we want to cook, so we can cook for us on her one phones-off no work till tomorrow day in the spirit of Mila being home. Amplifying the subject as if we a mediteranian spiritual family. 

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Looking at the sunset-view from her window, again the feeling comes up h   
WORDPRESS APPLICATION MALFUNCTION ~ copying and pasting eaverytime I 

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

 

WORD PRESS APP MALFUNCTION~ it has copied and pasted endlessly each time using the 

how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 
What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff lid it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 
What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 
What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff lid it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff lid it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

J

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Right Or Wrong! If It Feels Like You Must, There Is Something FOR YOU In It. 

When something feels good, but is too questionable for you to just go with it, then more than likely there is at the very least something FOR YOU in it. 

> AS LONG AS YOUR INTENTIONS ARE GOOD <  then it cannot be bad. 

Weather something to learn, or something to realize, or even just a stepping-stone to make you ready for someting else. 


Sometimes in life, it can happen that there is something good for us in what we otherwise know as, or see as, being bad in some way, or somehow incorrect in some way, or just wrong somehow. …it doesn’t have to mean that we have to take it all/do it all/go all the way… we have our intuition, or gut feeling, or whatever you can best call it according to your own senses. 

Too many of our beliefs are rather more indoctrinations than truth. And much more than just that, we tend to pull back out of fear. If we pay closer attention to the details of our feelings (which come from what we think) especially when deciding something, then most of us will find that there is some fear-factor holding us back. …some fear of doing wrong, making a mistake …but most of us are also wise enough to know where there is real danger, which is a totally different thing. Of course you don’t take a stupid dangerous risk. …that could handicap you for life, or kill you for example. 

Personally I have many experiences wherein it has turned out to be true that we are too fearful. Though it isn’t untill now, that I have started to realize and understand this. 

For example; 

Because I was born to parents that were successful musicians, there was alot of traveling in my life, already from the time I was born, and as I grew older and circumstances were changing, the traveling never stopped. So I feel as if born to travel, and I don’t feel content with beeing all year round in the same one place only. So of course it came up that I wanted to really explore the world I live in, really discover this amazing planet I live on, as much as I could. So eventually by the end of my teens I started a seemingly impossible search mission,  for how I could get out of Denmark/Copenhagen, to travel freely, which to me meant changing countries whenever I want or feel I should. To everyone I knew, it was absolutely an unrealistic idea, and durring the approx. 3 years it took to find my “key to the world”, it did look more and more impossible from all angles, with all the discoveries I was making allong the way. 

But I couldn’t give up, because in the back of my mind I was aware of one very interesting fact, that none of us really truly know what is realistic, as History shows that all to clearly.  So I felt that something will pop up if I keep looking and searching. And eventually exactly that happened, but through totally unexpected ways, through things that seemed like they had absolutley nothing to do with my mission. It came through my good intentions of wanting to help a friend to realize her dreams. …which I by the way had to pull out of her. 

Her dreams seemed quite silly/rediculous to me, but I was telling myself not to judge (and she did make me promise not to laugh) as she finally described; 

I wanna be that kind of woman they show in the Shampoo commercial, who follows the time and progress, who people respect and listen to, as she walks into the conference room. 

I felt that this was the kind of thing that she would end up achieving on her own if she really wanted it, as she was still studiyng anyway. And should thre come a time where I could help her in that, perhaps if she would come to a point where she would have to know, to decide for getting more specific on what carrer choises and direction she would have to make, then I would, being her best friend, naturally come to know of, if I could be of any help. And so I managed to pull out of her, that she did have another dream. This one she was much more shy about, but she did manage to get it out, and said; 

Remember this music video from Aerowsmith?, where the two girls end up in a bar where there is a stage, and one of the girls gets up on the stage and makes half a strip-tease show. Well at least once in my life I want to experience being the girl who all the men admire like that, and drop jaws over. 

I immediately connected that to the memory of my grandmother having at home the little magazine for tourists, called Copenhagen This Week, because since her husband died, she was struggling to stay living in her villa by renting rooms out to tourists. And in the back of this magazing, on the last pages I had seen some night-club, for men to go look at girls doing strip-tease. So I immediately thought, I can help her arrange for a night like that. And I promissed her that this, we can easily make come true. She was always to afraid to just go and do most anything, and I figured it was because her mother was over-protecting her and spoiling her too much, so she never had to do anything herself or take responsability. And having grown up together, since age 9, I knew her well enough to know that this was never gonna happen, unless I helped her arrange it and would go with her, and so I did. 


About half a year later, still on my mission for finding a way to travel freely, I was looking at international job adds, and today I know that if it wasn’t for her silly dream, my mind would never have registered this one particular add, about an agency looking for sexy females, offering periodical dancing-job contracts and topless bartending contracts, in New York, Vienna, Greece and other places in the world. And only because I knew she would do it (if I would go with her) I thought I could manage it as well in our togetherness. So I called for an appointment, which eventually became the source that made me discover my “key to the world” for traveling freely. 

On my own I would have been fearful (neverming really noticing the add) because such a thing was not really part of my perception, and even if I had known of this job being an option, I would have considered it bad/wrong/disgraceful and so on. And on top of all that, I was also much too shy and insecure, especially about my body, and I sure did not feel beautiful enough. But I believed that she would do it, and in that case, at least we could hide a bit by being behind the bar, because I always felt, that together we can do and be anything we want in this world. 

She did end up going dancin, without me, with a group of other Danish girls from the agency, and as I was seeing how she was traveling and saving up money, and coming back home with loads of photos showing off all the good times in sunny places, it all provoked me to grow the courage to eventually join her. 

I am so deeply grateful to myself, for never giving up on my impossible-looking dream, to travel freely. And looking back I find, that my personal growth became so multidimentional. …by multidimentional I mean that it is very clear to me, that I would never have been able to grow so much, in so many ways, on so many different levels, if I had not spent over a decade globetrotting alone in a job that allows you, depending on your level of correctness and your level of active intelligence, to move about and in and out, of all different levels of life and hierarchies, all different environments, mentalities and so on. ….yes I ended up traveling alone, some 80% of the time, because she stayed behind in Greece, and it was clear that if I didn’t manage to have the guts to go on alone, then I would wait for her forever, and never get further, instead of using this “key” to the world that I now finally had. 

I could give many more and totally different examples than this one. But I think this one is a great and even perfect example. So I will leave it at that, at least for now. 

If you have any stories yourself, that give an example of how you felt something was good for you, as if hidden within something that otherwise seemed like it could be just bad, THEN PLEASE DO COMMENT BY SHARING THIS ACHIEVED WISDOM OF YOURS.