Grand Scientific Research Upgrade

Internationally speaking. We are going authentic!

This is our rEvolution.

Roughly speaking, most of all our scientific research is performed on animals, and not directly on us, the humans who then buy and intake it. In general, the only scientific research being done directly on masses of humans, is being done by writing fake scientific research documents and having a doctor put his name on it and sign it for a handsome reward, which even includes all the public credits for it. And like this many medication have come onto the market of pharmaceutical products, that the rest of all doctors then for the most part unknowingly prescribe to us. But they do also get rewards for all prescribtions they make.

On the flipside of all that, the effects of the pharmaceutical industry is, as too many of us know it; those who end up on a permamemt drug especially, eventually pretty much all end up with some side effect/s ~ having to take another drug, and are eventually taking several different pharmaceutical industry products daily.

In the big picture, what is happening is, that this product industry of pharmaceuticals (being one of the richest most profittable businesses, together with religions and wars), is most of the time interrupting natures own organic ways of dealing with things, and these chemical types of unnatural interruptions are then logically enough, causing other problems instead, instead of just finding and adressing the rootproblems, in understanding the human body and its psyche, and how the whole organizm works, to then be able to just be correctly helping the body to fix itself, (which is as well what doctors forexample do when they help a broken limb to heal correctly).

But what if there actually is natural solutions to our health problems!? What if WE CAN use natures remedies better than the chemical drugs from the pharmaceutical (billions profiting) industry, but rather just with completely natural and not to mention harmless substances, accurately assist the body’s incredible self healing organism!?

As someone with a perspective from a decade’s worth of research on natural medicine and personal human experiments and results, I notice that the current movements and growth of the medicinal use of psychadelics, is as well achieving much better and even real propper, and thereto human results, (many of which are very personal and specifik) with a lot more details and authenticity than our otherwise classic laboratory research. And this whole movement, is also debunking most pharmaceuticals, in the same similar ways as my research and findings ~ from my international autodidakt education.

And as well as with my lines of study in the worlds of natural medicine (once called witchcrafts), the psychadelic research is being based on human trials, and they are even very personal (instead of impersonal/standartized “laboratory-rat”) experimentations, and so as well the experience raports are very individual and grow our understanding of not only pacients but thereby each other in general, which simultaneously grows and expands not only our knowledge skills and expertise, but even our empathy included (like the cherry on our cake, the dot on top of our i and after our sentence).

All in all, in these fields of using natural remedies in harmless doses, we have the seemingly simple but very great and Grand Upgrade, in the way of going about proving something scientifically. And it is full of complexity and human accuracy. …personal authenticity, and even of purity in harmony with nature.

We are getting so wise here.

Okay, Golden Age. Here we come!

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Content But Emotionally Drained

Actually I never feel like this!? But ok now I do! And I deserve to be filled with love and such good energies.

I deserve to be with people who are wise enough to just love unconditionally, ~ who are fearless, and not so overly concerned with themselves, that they just blindly knock out someone else on their way, while they storm in n out to check if there is anything they can use for their happiness here. .. just flying through like a hurricane, knocking out whoever it was, who was there on the other end of the very connection itself, and without even realising that they fractured someone on their way.

Intense energies of what appeared to be loving friendship bond, callint itself my soul-mate, came storming into my life, and left as fast as if the soul-mate concept was just a joke on me.

It was sweet, but selfabsorbed. Not a wise multisided being of many levels.

In fact, what a cruel illusion to serve to someone. Like serving a huge delicious meal to a starving person, but just to satisfy your own sore ego’s pride, with how well your virtual reality system works.

Though tiny traces are left here and there in my flat, so that I know it did actually take place. ..so that I know it was not all exclusively just to fool me. Rather I am wise enough to know enough levels, layers and sides, to know that this somone is in their own process. But at least a whole book or more appart from where I am at.

I even felt it from far (in his expressions of fascination with fancy cars, huge TV projections and sound systems), and then I even saw fractions of it here in person, in form of signs of further mainstream expressions (in the wearing a giant wristwatch, and collecting sneakers).

But I do suspect that he might catch up fast, because of his intensity of feeling things, and expressing self-analysis and reflection. But I don’t really know that for sure, because I don’t know how much he actually questions everything in life, incl.his self, and how much he actually seeks knowledge and truth, compared to that of how much he watches (the damn forsaken) UnterHaltung of TV and mainstream media.

It all happened so fast. But it was so intense, and left me so draned emotionally, that I slept 14 hours, and all day I felt too exhausted to even speak much, feeling all day, as if a train had hit me.

Now 24 hours later, I am recovering my heart from it all.

I know I am in a time where I finally best be getting divine support and unconditional love. Even though I have no one, not even any family left, I know it is my turn now anyway. Do it however you can universe!

It’s been more than enough of people using my love and kindness in so stupid ways, just wasting it all, and it’s been more than enough of all disturbing and painful events. It is time for the so far life-long ongoing theme of abandonmen to stop for good now.

Its also time for me to be here for me now. I resign from being living for others. It is time for me now.

This love that came by to just greet me, was a perfect example of, how I need to be taking care of me, face that there is no human hero nor saviour, besides myself. It is time to face that I am the hero and saviour that I wish for.

Humans are not here to love me, nor to help me, not even to understand me.

So fine with you all, showing me that I don’t have to keep serving and putting any of you first before myself anymore.

It’s good to know that I have lived my life for you all long enough, and that now, in order to ballance the scales, it is time for me to live for me.

I use it this experience as a reminder to love myself. So thank you for the reminding lesson.

imagining away like a child, imagining ~ creating the opposite in detail, automatically and continuously forever deleting the all selfabsorbed blind crude behaviours and attitudes. 

I knew I hadn’t the psychological capacity at the moment, to withstand any of the negative and aggressive provokative energies, which always seem to be generated, in most any person taking coke on a daily basis, 24/7. 

But mostly I find a way with anything as there is a solution to everything. And sometimes you can turn a problem into an opportunity. ..as if in disguise. 

But I had decided to focus on all and any possitive aspects I could find, and so I did. And what I arrive into is almost to good to be true. I feel like a lucky baby piggy so cute, but with wings. So soon I’m in shape again~all recuperated, and flying free again. 

It’s so good to be here. I’m so surprised how sweet and loving MY SIS is behaving. It almost freaks me out!? She is so open and honest about ….wow!?, everything, even her substance abuse. We’ve never felt closer. And as we spoke and discusded about it, she said she found herself getting really clear about it with herself for the first time ever feeling So extremely objective, from just talking and a actually formulating all the feelings of it in to words to me, feeling safe to be deeply open and dead honest, laughing and frouning sometimes in agreement and sometimes in disagreement, freely without feeling disturbed for her openness ~without it ever being turned against her. She is totally open to my feeling of things, and rather tries to explain to me what is good in something I disagree with, to get me with her on it. I mostly do feel with her in all, and end up having to chose voting for the better angle of options about some things. And she is so gracefully agreeing to disagree without any anger and frustration. She says to enjoy being made more aware of different angles of better suiting options to ponder untill the day she makes the move to stop doing something, or changess her perceiving point on something. It was a nice long very connected conversation, coincidentally no phones or any one or anything bisturbing us getting carried away in spilling our hearts to each other, and get tripping on digging deeper and getting even more clear, like we both know we both got some unidentified detail of dirt somewhere unnoticed, which needs some search and find, and figure out what it is is inorder to figure out how to cleanse it sway. This time it was her who felt most funny over how putting it in words to me, made it tangibly crystal clear to herself, revealing what she wants the next steps to be, and with that as well what the next work years look like. Feeling the epiphany to implement some new energetic changes and adjustment of how and where to spend the most attention on the energyflows. 

AND lucky for her that I know, that she is so good in how she goes into what she has decided, and makes the way shine with her creative and humor. 

The first morning here, as we got up she reacted so sweet, when she saw my bio foods all placed in her kitchen cupboards with all her stuff, it made me feel so welcome, the fact that she was saying she found it so sweet how I tried to match where she keeps what, and that it feels so cozy to see all my stuff filling out spaces here and there, that it feels like someone has arrived home. 
She made me feel so wanted and apreciated that I rushed to give her a long cozy hug, successfully interrupting the feeling to cry, feeling like I have landed in safety, in unconditional love, where I can let my deform existence be showing as it does, while totally relaxing all at the same time, where I am so wanted and apreciated that I can’t do anything wrong, where my attention is automatically changing to better happier thoughts ~vibes, because I am in an environment of pure love. This is where I recuperate my health, I can feel it already, this is where I heal my heart and spirit. 

Ok like this it does feel like having arrived home. Wow!? 

She reminds me so profoundly of what it feels like to be loved, that I realize I had forgotten a few depths of what it does inside me. 

When I said I exptessed I felt worried about exchanging few of my euros, in fear of ending up in some situation where I dont even have money to atleast just leave to get out of it, she couldn’t believe that I still considered her to even just maybe still being capable of behaving ,,yeah like this what you call jewish to you. My only sister, and best influence. My serious, figure-it-all-out and organize-it-all, highly sensitive,  lonely and in need of feeling loved and wanted. At a time like this, why would tou expect that I wouldn’t take good care, in All ways of tou. And when tou even heard all I didnfor that guy!?, you don’t think I would do more for you!?” Then she paused for a while, while I had nothing yet to to say, and then she said ,,I have to say, that! bothers me. It hurt at first, but now it rather just bothers me. I think maybe you are also traumatized from me!?”

Then I immediately responded ,,No I’m just in a bad place with the world around me in general, for too long, so stuck in percieving badfeeling things coming at me, used to getting hurt and dissappointed too much. I am not traumatized from you anymore, since those time I was here working for you, and tou took me shopping on your bill every time. Then I was stunned, and toy kept impressing me with lovely reactions. And tou came aftwr me in the park where I had gone down to cry and wish over everything alone, then you showed up and I couldn’t believe it, I started to really feel your love for me, I was blown away and started believing from that time. 

But… or And!?, now you take that … stuff, but you behave to me like you must be on e really instead!? No, I know you would pay my ticket or give me money for simething necessary, but I so want to not have to ask for anything and be fully well off self sufficient and free financially. I know worry is a waste, I’m sorry. I am lala up there man.” 

Before we went to sleep she told me where she keeps the cat’s food, and asked me to please give him so and so much at whatever hours, while she’d be gone all day. And tthe whole way she was so normal cool and kind about it, it was just so relaxing. 

I know it seems like I’m tripping, getting high on nothing. But this means the world to me. This means I have good family, which is even goodfeelin for me. That is big. This means I have not wasted my love or time our whole lives hahaa.. we get our own paradise before any death. Togetjer we always can do anything and everything, when in those good connected modes of ours, full of fearless unconditional love and trust. Then we are powerful like …. and it feels like we can conquer the world. which is also always a good sign. 

She told me sweetly to please keep her only shiny pot shiny free from watermarks, exusing saying that she’s a bit fixated here and there. And I was like, no hahaa.. good fixation, I love that shit, it keeps things beautiful and it keeps them lasting forever. 

The seccond day, she was trying not to mind her phone and was much more With me fory feeling. Otherwise her job I her life and she entertains herself with it by using her humor where she can. And she sure is funny. She is a natural comedian. She just doesn’t believe me really. On the way to her one job, westopped at a gasstation of the highway and went together to the big empty bathroom where we ended up being silly and laughing like we used to do, especially as kids, uncontrolably. 

The next day she cancelled three bookingsat work and told the owner that it simply wasn’t worth it for her, and see you tomorrow kind of thing. Next she called her mom and concinced her by sweetly forcing her to not be able to say no, to being what we want to cook, so we can cook for us on her one phones-off no work till tomorrow day in the spirit of Mila being home. Amplifying the subject as if we a mediteranian spiritual family. 

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

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Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

 

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how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 
What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff lid it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 
What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 
What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff lid it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff lid it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  
Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

Wow this is very challenging! I feel kind of empty on this subject today, because there are several things/insidents, which I don’t see how to turn around to the opposite!? 

Instead I’m getting filled with questions about why I have kept someone in my life, who is mostly so hurtful to me. I know several different loving answers for that, but it’s not the first time in life that she “makes me” feel like a fool for not listening everyone else who loved me and always disagreed of my having her in my universe. ….my little sister-Ann-Carina…… 

How do I make an opposite reality-creation of things like this; 

Being particular about different practical things while being the traveler/globetrotter I am, I often drag a load of food things with me, because if the experience I have with searching stuff in a different country and the time takes to find it, if you find it at all.But this time mybreason for bringing food from germany was also, because its so much cheaper AND my gut clearly has some issue. And she knows all of this is what’s going on in my life because I can never keep myself from talking about how I feel and what I’m dealing with in my life, equally much weather its good or bad. 

But I offer her to try a peanut paste for cooking, saying we can make a sauce from it, as I always love to share nearly everything, I’ve learned it’s just a perfect good feeling. ..which part she ruined (as usual, and in similar ways as my dad would ruin everything). So I make the mistake of speaking out from a silly (enxiety filled poor lonely lost currently now also homeles silly me) feeling ,,but you’re kinda wasting this prescious product if you mix it with a knorr product”. Which I said in a normal and laid back but still friendly way, a bit whiny like a little girl, in her kind of sweet way ~communication on her own terms “in her language”, how she would do it and I would accept it ~love. But to which she reacted so hostile and full of ugly shit filled the room. I indirectly appologized by saying I didn’t mean it like that, I just spoke out from an unfiltered feeling, because I’m in stress, and was draging it because I know you will be out of everything, hardly eating, not even buying these things anyway, and I don’t really have money right, so I drag it from berlin to Randers. But she has no mercy, so she went on filling our joined universes with this personally mean ~unstandable energy, and keeps repeatingly saying, that we dont touch each others foods at all and buy each our own different foods. But she knows I urgently need a psychological rest. And from this first day on, monday or tuesday it was, she has been usingthe paste, (typican her todo tuff like that) I could see it moving slinghtly all the time in the fridge, but hello!? I never actually opened it to check what’s going on, telling myself ,,naah, it’s just me traumatised from how she used to be”. But today, saturday, I wanted to use it and found it nearly empty. 

What happened to the insisting by repeadedly saying, we don’t touch each others bla-bla.. and buy our own etc.!?? 

It feels a bit psycho-terror’ish for the person that she otherwise would be with me, and WAS with me, the previous time I was here. Before the crude substance returned with its energy effects, whichbshe also swore and believed it never would. But ok unexpected ways van happen, so it happened, and it is what it is. And it feels a bit self-psycho-terror’ish for me to have somehow allowed this to be possible to happen withing my life. 

And this morning I get up to find my cale-chips crubled on floor …. 

I asked how come, and she toyally  doesn’t feel a thing. Not even, gigle of sorry or anything. Juststraight up provoking my nerves n making efforst to make me dissappointed~hurt~angry..  

J